another one of those emo updates...

sigh.. what's happening to me..
my life is such a mess..
well, it was nvr exactly organized in the first place, but at least not as out of hand as now..

i'm hurting ppl who care about me..
i'm withdrawing from everything that's happening around me..
i'm losing faith and interest in things i used to be SOO passionate about..

i dun wan ppl to worry..
so i try my best to smile and laugh and pretend everything's okay..
i have the most awesome frens that anyone can wish for, but sometimes i feel like i'm all alone to face this world..
i try to talk, but no one truly understands..
i pray, alot.. and all i can do is to believe, and take one step at a time..


i once promised myself that watever happens, i wont take it out on anyone..
whatever i go through, i try my best not to influence ppl around me..
but why is it that, everytime i try not to do something, i end up doing it on a larger scale.. in a negative manner..


i hate feeling so helpless.. it's frustrating...