New Year's Resolution

has anyone ever wondered how this tradition actually came about?
i mean, year after year, many resort to making them..
and most ppl have the same things on their list :
1) exercise more, lose weight..
2) sleep less..
3) cut back on facebook time..
4) find a bf (or gf, if you're a guy) etc.


but more often than not, many look back at the end of the year and they realised,
they never stick to their resolutions..


and the important question is.... W H Y?..


you see, most people make, what you'd call a COMMUNITY RESOLUTION



ppl make them cuz, the ppl around them makes them.. and the ppl around them makes them bcuz the ppl around the ppl around them makes them, and.. AH WELL, u get the idea..


so peeps, just wanna tell you guys.. dun make new year resolutions bcuz you feel compelled to do it.. do it, bcuz dat's wat u rilli wanna do..
and if you set ur heart and mind on it, u dun hafta wait till new year's to make it.. it can be done anytime of the year..

so my new year resolution for this year will be.. NO NEW YEAR;S RESOLUTION!! =D
well, more like, i'll come up with resolutions of my own and since i cant tink of a better name, for now it shall be called the "you-can-call-it-anything-else besides-new-year's-resolution" resolution =D


ANYWAY, *holding up imaginary glass*, here's to the end of 2010.. and now, we await the arrival of the year 2011 with hopes of a greater year with many more blessings and good things coming our way =D HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! =D

facebook personalities..

facebook. the social networking site which enables ppl to kip in touch with others easily as well as to kill time with its various sideline entertainments.. and today, most ppl have gotten addicted to it.. as u venture deeper into the facebook world, you'll notice a myriad of somewhat entertaining and occasionally annoying facebook personalities. here are some of the commonly seen ones..

1) the status updaters..
exhibit A :
status : i'm bored...
*few seconds later* status : going shopping now..
*few minutes later* status : at the shoping mall now..
*few minutes later* status : jus bought a new shirt..
*few minutes later* status : taking a break now..
*few minutes later* status : drinking starbucks coffee and eating J.co doughnuts now.. Yum..

status updates are fine (and twitter for the matter), it's a nice way to express wat ur doing and to kip ppl in the know.. but there are jus some ppl who post WWAAYYY too many status updates.. well, newsflash ppl, unless ur some hot shot celebrity, no one rilli cares wat u do EVERY second.. so, kip it to a moderate level, will ya..


2) the relationship updaters..
person A is in a relationship with person B.
*few minutes later* person A is in a relationship.
*few minutes later* person A is in a relationship and it's complicated.
*few minutes later* person A is married.
*few minutes later* person A is single.
*few minutes later* person A is in a relationship with person B.

for those of you who are attached, congrats, we're happy for you.. we know ur over the moon n you wan the whole world to know about it, but the constant change in ur r'ship status can be pretty annoying.. so if it's public attention and acknowledgment that you wan, all you hafta do is ask.. we're be more than happy to help you spread the news..


3) the one who never misses an opportunity to comment or like..
i'm sure some of us have these kinda frens.. every page u go or every new video or photo u see has a 'like' or a comment from these ppl, as though it's a SIRIM chop.. it's either these ppl have a WHOLE lot of interest and like alot of things and have alot of things to say or they're merely attention seekers..


4) the LOL-ers..
person A: hi, long time no see, how are you.. LOL
person B: i'm great.. how bout you? LOL
person A: i'm doing fine too.. LOL
person B : LOL

well, there's ntg wrong about Laughing Out Loud.. but let's face it, how many of us are rilli laughing out loud?.. and it's being used so nonchalantly at the end of every sentence dat LOL has become the new full stop. a stop to da whole conversation as a matter of fact.. cuz there's absolutely ntg you can reply to a LOL


5) the profile picture updaters..
ppl who change numerous profile pictures faster than you or i can blink..


6) the pokers..
po-ke-ty poke poke.. nuff said..


7) the game inviters..
"Here is one Coffee Beans ingredient for you to improve your restaurant's menu! Could you help me by sending one back?"
"so-and-so has lost his/her sheep. help him/her find his/her sheep"

seriously?!?


*but anyway, this post was not meant to be offensive in any way.. it's just the truth from wat i see from viewing facebook very frequently.. =D

you know you're a facebook addict when..

1) it's da first page u immediately open when u get an internet connection (it's probably even in ur list of boomarked pages)
2) you have several tabs of facebook opened at the same time, all the time..
3) you check facebook every few minutes (or refresh it every few seconds)
4) you can't stop thinking bout facebook the moments ur not on facebook..
5) every single information u obtained about others is from facebook..
6) you have to FORCE urself to SWEAR off facebook for at least a day (when approaching important events like exams)
7) you have more than 1379 frens, 328photos, 112groups, 98 likes and 50 videos.. (ok, i was jus being ridiculously random =P)

another one of those emo updates...

sigh.. what's happening to me..
my life is such a mess..
well, it was nvr exactly organized in the first place, but at least not as out of hand as now..

i'm hurting ppl who care about me..
i'm withdrawing from everything that's happening around me..
i'm losing faith and interest in things i used to be SOO passionate about..

i dun wan ppl to worry..
so i try my best to smile and laugh and pretend everything's okay..
i have the most awesome frens that anyone can wish for, but sometimes i feel like i'm all alone to face this world..
i try to talk, but no one truly understands..
i pray, alot.. and all i can do is to believe, and take one step at a time..


i once promised myself that watever happens, i wont take it out on anyone..
whatever i go through, i try my best not to influence ppl around me..
but why is it that, everytime i try not to do something, i end up doing it on a larger scale.. in a negative manner..


i hate feeling so helpless.. it's frustrating...

dear "you",

just when i thought i've seen enuf dementors*, you came along..
the only d'rence is that dementors are thin and scrawny, while you, on the other hand, are.. well, the plain opposite..
come to think of it, you remind me of a human-sized garfield.. a not so cute version though..

you have such an amazing bean sprout-like handwriting that it makes chicken's clawing** seem legible..
spectacle companies shud SOO hire you as their sales rep,
cuz by the end of the semester, i'm pretty sure all the students in ur classes will be wearing glasses already..

and i wish i could pay more attention in ur class but the way u explain things sumtimes, is such a turn off..
in fact, if you were to tel me the story of cinderella for the first time in my life, the only things i'd probably get outta the story are
she's a girl,
there's a pumpkin involved,
and somehow it was a happily ever after story..

i thank God that it's almost the end of the semester..
sorry for being brutal but, i hope i'll never end up in ur class again.

love,
your frustrated student

*for those of you who have never read harry potter, it's a creature which sucks all the happiness outta you..
**haha, direct translation of cakar ayam

H.O.M.E.S.I.C.K.

i came bak for a total of 7 classes in two days, jus to find out that 3 of it are cancelled..

then i was thinkin of going bak to penang (5 days break!!!), then i remembered, i got a camp comin up this friday.. sigh..

so, i thought, maybe i'll head over to my aunt's place in damansara (at least i'll have a home-y feeling for 2 and a half days!!), then i remembered, i'm one of the person in charge for 2mr's techflow meeting.. sigh...

i am officially bored to death.. and i'm SUPER homesick..

i miss my house..
i miss my family..
i miss my friends..
i miss my dog..
i miss my bed..

i miss everything to do with HOME!!!

3 main reasons why i always go M.I.A.

see, the reason why i started a blog in the first place, is to update my friends on what's been happening in my life or what i've stumbled upon lately.. a somewhat convenient method to channel it (besides facebook), esp. after leavin high skool and everyone's off in their separate lives to lead..

and it's also a method for the future me to reminisce on what retarded things the past me had seen, done or said =)


but, what usually happens when i'm about to update a blog post..
1) *snap of a finger*
imaginary light bulb is lit.. i get an idea, i start developing on dat idea in my mind
i get excited about it..
i get RILLI excited about it...
i get RILLI RILLI RILLI excited about it..........

then i get worn out due to the excitement. the excitement dies.
i go thru a whole phase of mind-blogging and it dies b4 i even blog about it.. so yea, no updates..



OR if i dun have the time to write about it...
2) write it down somewhere first, to remind myself to blog about it when i have the time.. (and the whole time, i have da giddiness of a little girl inside of me when i tink bout bloggin bout it)

time passes, and one day.. it's time to finally update my blog.. i look into my updates book on where to start..
HOLY CRAP, I HAVE A GAZILLION THINGS TO BLOG ABOUT!!!
AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaAAAHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHH!!!!!

the indecisiveness of which one to blog about first kills me b4 i even update one blog post..


OR.....
3) jus a normal day, and i feel like updating my blog.. internet connection established..
(monologue : first thing i'm gonna do is update my blog..)
update blog.. update blog.. update blog.. must update blog.. must updaOH LOOKIE HERE!!! somebody posted up a super cool video on youtube!!! AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!
and so, yea, i end up doing everything else EXCEPT blogging..



so you see, i have so many hindrance everytime i wanna update my blog, and i seriously wonder how so many ppl can do it on a regular basis..
note to self : need to find solution to constant M.I.A. status of blog, or my lack of focus, or my short term attention span..

so, to those biotech ppl out there, if you tink u've created a pill or the likes dat can help solve my prob, i'd LOVE to be ur test subject =D

p.s. = on 2nd thought, not really =D hehe...

Today in circuits class.....

An interactive session between a fellow classmate of mine, let's jus call him Y, and my lecturer, I in class today.. emphasis, IN CLASS!!!

Part 1
Y : sir, how does this element work? does it have internal battery or sumthing?
I : that one, i'll explain it when we're in class.
Y : we're not in class now meh? (EPIC!!)
*lecturer somehow starts talkin about sumthing else and changes topic*

Part 2
I : "......there will be feedback to the input...."
Y : sir, wat do you mean by feedback?
I : feeding back.
the whole class : ?????
I : *mumbles* *mumbles* *mumbles* *lecturer changes topic of discussion, yet again*


sigh, when the seniors said that circuit analysis was gonna be a walk in the park, i honestly believed them. in fact, i stil do. but unfortunately, my wonderful lecturer manages to screw our minds upside down, inside out and make us feel like trying to decipher einstein's theory of relativity might be a piece of cake as compared to circuits.

exam season is OVER!!!

Lab Practical test 1.................. DONE!
DE Test 1................................. DONE!!
Circuits Analysis Mid Term.... DONE!!!
Advan. Calculus Test 1........... DONE!!!!
C Programming Mid Term.... DONE!!!!!

WHEE!!!!!! finally exams are over, finally i can relax a lil and catch up on my beauty sleep.. (my panda eyes are going a full circle already =P)

activities for may

3rd: *confidential*
4th: chemistry presentation
5th: english quiz
6th: physics quiz
7th: calculus test
12th: MUET speaking test, dateline for english assignment
14th: physics test
17th: english presentation
18th: chemistry quiz
19th: calculus quiz, *confidential*
22nd: moral project
26th: event management
29th: MTAF camp

STRESS!!!
need break!!!!

the 3rd anniversary

25/4/2007. I remember that day almost vividly. It was raining, just like today. I was off to school in the wee hours of the morning, going through the routine life of a high school student. It seemed like a pretty normal day, except that, it was the day my grandmother went to rejoin her Maker.

Growing up in a family of 6, i had working parents. Parents who left for work in the morning and returned home towards the evening (fyi, i'm not complainin about that, cuz i fully understand dat my parents had worked real hard to support our family). And the age gap between my siblings and i made our schooling hours different. So for most of the time, my only human companion was my grandmother.

My grandmother was no one extraordinary. She nagged, ALOT in fact. She loved telling long-winded stories. Stories about the Japanese occupation, how my aunts and dad grew up and other stories of the past. stories that kept on coming and made you think they'll NEVER end. She cursed whenever someone accidentally dropped something. she watched soap operas and forgets everything she watched soon after. and best of all, her paranoid and dramatic self would cause me to panic along with her at times. for instance, she'll be the alarm clock who wakes me up by screaming that i'm gonna be late for the 12 o'clock school bus if i don't wake up immediately. but the clock only shows that it's 9am, and yea, she's fully aware of dat.

but it was this very same lady who taught me about life. she took the responsibility of disciplining and looking after me because my parents couldn't be home all the time. she always made sure that my three meals of the day were prepared before i even felt hungry. and it was always that sweet smile on her face that greeted me everytime i came home. and oh, the little knowledge or skill i have about cooking, i got it from her. and ashamed as i am to admit it, she beared with all my rudeness and vents of anger when i turned rebellious in my adolescent years.

it's been 3 years since she left. 3 years. how time flies. the huge emptiness left behind after her death was almost unbearable. but as time progressed, it slowly healed. i may not be perfect nor will i ever be. all i know is that my grandmother played a huge role in shaping me to become who i am today. and i believe that i grew up just fine. should she still be alive, i believe my grandmother would be proud of who i have become. and whatever happens, i would never give up the 16 memorable years i had with her for anything else in this world.

there's this guy i'd like to tell you guys about..
his name, you may ask..
well, it is of little importance or significance as compared to his character..
the first time i saw him, he didn't leave much of an impression..
it was as time progressed dat i noticed some, i would say, rather interesting things about him..

first would be dat, if the way a person acts or talks can be described in terms of watching movies,
he DEFINITELY grew up watching movies on fast forwards (x32)..
with probably no pause button on his remote..
probably with no stop button as well..
(or maybe he was jus born in a bullet train)

and if his current job fails him,
the next best job befitting him would certainly be a slave driver
(it's in his blood)
and no matter how estatic or euphoric u may be for the day,
he never fails to suck out all the happiness in you, leaving you a major headache as a souvenir..
(for all we know, he might be a dementor in human skin)
nevertheless, he NEVER fails to put a smile on my face everytime he utters those 5 beautiful words..
''that is all for today''

and dat, my frens, is my calculus lecturer..

random family joke

my mum was having a conversation with my sis on msn, when my bro came shouting to my mum..

bro : MII!! GOT HUGE SPIDER IN THE KITCHEN!!!
(oh, for those who dun know bout my bro, he's 27 and MARRIED!)

mum : jus kill it la, how hard can it be?
bro : CANNOT!!! THE SPIDER IS HUGE!!!!!!

so mum went to the kitchen and killed the spider.. and she came back to describe the spider..
my bro was such a drama queen.. da spider's body's relatively small compared to a 5cent coin, it jus happen to have long legs..

then my sis said..
sis : ko ko, u shouldnt kill the spider, you know..
bro : why?!? (with seriousness on his face)
sis : cuz then, there'll be even more spiders!
bro : WHY? HOW COME?!? (now with an additional worried look on his face too)
sis : cuz the rest of the spiders will come for the dead spider's funeral.. =D

hahahahahahahah.. you know dat feeling you get when the huge prankster got pranked? yea, dat was how it felt at that moment.. TRULY PRICELESS!!

Sunway escapade : 1st April

right after class ended at 10am, i decided to tag along in my classmates' trip to sunway,
where the 7 of us tried sumthing for the first time in our lives... ICE SKATING!!!
when we got to da skating rink, we watched as a number of people skated around so beautifully, swiftly and what seemed to me, effortlessly..
with nervousness and giddiness building up inside us, we quickly put on da necessary gears and head to the rink..

the first step into da rink proved to be a real eye opener... dat it was even harder than we thought!..
heck! crap! it was super freaking slippery, we were like babies taking our first steps..
even tryin to stand still proved to be an energy consuming task..

you wouldnt wan to be stepped on by one of this, it freakin hurts! (speakin from experience)

we started out slow and easy, holdin onto the sides and slowly as we got the hang of it, we let go..
soon enuf, we were skating! woohoo!.. erm well, with the occasionaly falls la..
in total, i suffered 7 falls and 2 blisters..

my poor right hand received most of the blow.. (but hey, no pain no gain rite =D)
all in all, it was an amazing and fun esperience.. cant wait to go ice skating again (altho i suck at it =D)


then, we went for lunch, at Fullhouse..

ze guyz

ze pretty girlz

(l-r:) the two 'ji mui's, the bridesmaid, the bride, the groom, the best man, the 'heng tai' haha..

the food was really good, and i'd say the price was pretty reasonable la..

yummy chicken chop!!!

my not so yummy spaghetti.. but the price of the food was reasonable..

stumbled upon this in the fullhouse gift shop

ctrl + alt + del.......

CUPS! cuteness.. haha..

then we went to the arcade for a bit before our movie at 4.. Clash of The Titans 3D! it is a MUCH COOLER version of percy jackson & the lightning thief.. and it made more sense too..

then, dinner at manhattan fish market.. where we dined, and played truth or dare (with only truth).. great bonding session among friends =D

the guys' pasta


the girls' fish & chips..

then it was time to head home.. aww man, i absolutely love the taxi driver.. UNCLE SHAM!! he was teaching us moral lessons.. heck! i was actually learning sum moral related stuff from him, compared to my uni moral class..
the questions discussed : how do you define smart? how do you define beauty? how do you define good (baik)?
and uncle sham left us with a question to ponder upon.. if you could ask for one thing from God, what would you ask for? =)

Smile?

*a song from Glee which i relate to now*
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

This song keeps playing in my ear and in my head, over and over again, much like a broken record..
And i wonder, is it ever this simple?
smile, cuz it’s better than crying..
Smile, things will get better eventually..
smile...

but what if all the negativity surrounds you so badly, you cant even muster the energy to smile?
What if ur heart truly aches, and smiling doesn’t help soothe da pain?
What if ur down and u dun wan others around you to worry.. yes, smiling conceals our pain and puts others around you at ease.. but deep inside you, you’ll wonder, how will you get through this?

*need to find that glimmer of light to return to my usual cheerful self*

awaken from deep sleep.. again =D

after what seems like eternity, i've decided, yet again, to return to blogging..
well, technically, i need a medium to channel my thoughts which are constantly crammed up in my brains, dat i dun have enuf brain cells to think anymore (LOL)
anyway, let's see how long my blogging will last b4 i start going m.i.a. again (hopefully not!).. =)