friendships..

"if you were in her shoes, you'd do the same thing"

this sentence haunts me, for as much as i'd like to deny it, i can't deny it for certain..


today, i found out about a depressing little secret. a secret which was meant as a negative remark of me..
wat disturbed me wasnt the fact dat it wasnt true, but wat truly disturbed me,
was that that depressing false statement was made by a person who i thought our friendship still had hopes..
it's sad how we were once almost like the best of friends,
but as Fate had it, our friendship took a sharp turn, and nothing was the same anymore..

but as time passed by, i thought that maybe, just a slight maybe, things might get better..
i knew dat things would never be the same again, but i thought it could be a tinge better..


and when the same friend who told me bout the secret, said dat i'd do the same if i were in her shoes,
it got me thinking.. would I? would I do such a thing?

the opinions i got from others were dat i wouldnt.. but who knows, out of jealousy, i might..
watever it is, i thank God i dun have to find out the answer to dat..


it's tiring to be her friend, yet, it's tiring too to Not be her friend..
and everytime i have hopes that there might still be a chance of reconciliation, something like this happens..

it's so saddening.. all i can do for now is to leave this to God,
if it's meant to be, things will get better..
if it doesn't, guess we're not meant to be good friends after all..