Footprints in The Sand

this is currently my favourite story.. sadly to say, i've only managed to FULLY understand this story's true meaning recently.. hehe, anyway, to those who have read it b4, hope u liked it, for those who haven't, happy reading ('',)

Footprints
Also Known As "I Had a Dream"

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

---

Margaret Fishback Powers, 1964

ok, end of story, hehe.. this may MOST PROBABLY be my las post until after SPM.. so to ppl i.e. angelin and joyce, stop scoldin me for not updatin post k.. hahaha.. anyway, take care everyone! till da nex time i type in another post ('',)

updates

oh gosh.. where do i begin.. there's so much to update bout.. hmmm, i think i'll jus update some la..

so, ok.. 22nd august : went out wif a really 'AMAZING' fren..and by amazing, lemme tell u a story bout him.. (a story he told me la, btw) few days back, he went out wif his ex-skoolmates.. one of his frens fetch him la.. then, b4 sendin him home, his fren ask him to follow him to da petrol station first.. he said ok.. turns out, his fren doesn't know how to pump the pressure for the tyre.. my fren helped his fren pump the pressure.. then, SUDDENLY, they realised... one of the cap on the tyre was MISSING.. then, my AMAZING fren suggested the most AMAZING thing.. which is to go 'a certain somewhere' to steal another car's tyre cap.. it was rilli funny so i was laughin the whole time.. then suddenly he told me, they really did it.. they really went that 'certain somewhere' to steal another tyre cap.. imagine how shocked i was at dat time..hahaha, but it was quite funny la anyway.. and anoda reason why he's amazing is bcuz, i finally found someone who can talk crap as much as me, which is him la.. so i would say, he has an AMAZING crapping skill as well.. haha (angelin must be horrified now.. to think there's anoda person who's like me out there, hahaha)

september : SPM trials.. ok, i haven't gotten over the nightmare of SPM trials yet.. when i'm finally ready, i'll spill da beans la..

september 6: my sis flew off to UK to further her studies in University of Edinburgh.. sent her off at KLIA.. i've never been to KLIA, so wow, the place was rilli nice la.. hehe..

september 28 : HELP university SASA scholarship interview.. my gosh, if i knew it would make such a HUGE d'rence, i would have woken my bro up earlier.. angelin registered like 10, 20 minutes b4 me.. she went home at 10am, i went home at 2PM!!! thank God there were the three guys (they're under the SASA scholarship programme) who 'baby-sitted' us.. haha.. they were really nice ppl to talk to, and they were rilli humorous.. so, with them around, it wasn't too boring waiting for my turn to be interviewed la.. when i finally went in the room, gosh, actually, i still dunno how to describe till now, whether it was good or bad.. thru out the interview, they were giving compliments and also giving 'kritikan yang membina' (sort of la, hehe)
1)they say dat i dun seem every passionate bout engineering (swt-ness)
2)they say dat i present myself very confidently and all, so i should consider arts related jobs such as business, marketin etc.. (swt-ness, is dat suppose to be good or bad?)
3)from my list of activities dat i took part in, one of the interviewers said dat i'm very actively involved in activities.. so she asked me, will i be able to survive if i were to suddenly switched to jus academics alone i.e. engineering.. (er, i may not be like, the cream of the crop, but i felt offended bcuz it sounds as tho she's indicatin dat i cant study) but anyway, obviously i'll find sports or activities to take part in along the way while studyin la.. ''all work and no play makes jack a dull boy'' hehe..

but wat they ask or shud i say, 'tembak' angelin was MUCH worse than mine la.. sry if i may offend the HELP reps by saying this but, i dun think dat anyone, includin the interviewers, deserve to say such a thing to others (in this case, angelin) terrible!!! but anyway, this is a new experience for me la.. now i'll know dat types of questions ppl may ask me in other interviews in the future.. hehe..


ok, so now, i shall name my career aspects..
1) engineering : currently my first choice.. plannin to do e&e bcuz i havent really decided which aspect of engi do i wanna do yet.. and e&e topics also happen to be my fav topics in physics.. hehe..
drawbacks: i wanna major in add maths, and study physics as well. apparently no career has such a thing.. so, sadly, i still will be doing calculations but maybe not dat much dla..

2) actuarial science : the reasons why i considered this career is cuz my bro suggested it and also bcuz this career involves ADD MATHS! haha..
drawbacks: actuarial science involves accounts and economics (dun rilli like accounts, and so far, out of SO MANY ppl dat i know who studies econs, only one person tell me econs is fun).. oh, and actuarial science is in demand worldwide but not so in malaysia..

3) marketing : hahaha, actually, da only reason why i wan to do marketing is bcuz, i love to talk and socialise.. and also, i have been told dat i have the "gift of the gap" LOL!!
drawbacks: the only knowledge i've known so far bout marketin is thru my experience as assistant marketing director in YE las year.. which is not much.. and anyway, by studyin e&e, i can opt to marketing after dat.. haha, so i think i'll still prefer engineering..

so for now, i shall stick wif 'engineering' as my first choice.. meanwhile, i shall focus on SPM first..

questionaires..

1. What was your dream when you were a small kid?
haha, i wanted to be a teacher.. i still remember, when i was younger, my neighbour, christine and i used to play teacher-student, where we were the teachers and my teddy bears were our students.. haha..

2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
everything.. God, my family, my friends, even my little doggie ('',) without them, i have nothing ('',)

3.What do you wish to have right now?
unrealistically? MORE TIME! realistically? no wait, realistically or not, i still need more time.. haha..

4. When was the last time you Horse laugh?
horse laugh? er, i was born in the year of the sheep.. so i sheep laugh instead.. hehe..

5. What did you realize recently?
LOL! DARN LOT OF THINGS..
1. (from my dad:) no point forcing myself to study or feeling disappointed wif myself when my mind's too stressed out or tired.. go do sumthing to relax first, then resume studyin when i feel like it.. that's when my mind will be able to continue absorbin wat i study..
2. (from my bro:) it's true dat i've wasted alot of time. but no point crying over spilt milk, do the best i can within the remainin time i have..
3. (my add maths tuition:) among us three siblings, i'm the most pampered one.. dat's why i'm not as tough as my siblings..
4. (from my godbro aka evil twin bro:) haha, i should have listen to da advice he gave me las year
5. i finally understood the true meaning of the story ''footprints in the sand''
haha, this list is endless.. i shall jus stop here la.. haha..

6. Which bad habit of you that is most unacceptable?
PROCRASTINATION!!! and i paid an AWFULLY heavy price for dat during SPM trials..

7. When you are unhappy, what will you do?
i used to bottle everything up inside me when i was sad bcuz i didn't wan to trouble anyone.. (which is why my frens were so shocked to see me distraught bcuz i was da happy-go-lucky kind) but trials was the very brim of my 'unhappiness'.. and... embarrassingly, i broke down.. haha.. so now, i've learnt, tellin others (especially family members) my probs is probably da best way for me to solve my probs ('',)

8. What are you afraid of losing?
everything! from wat i own now to wat i will own in the future (includin a bright future ahead)

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
to still be alive? haha.. er, hopefully, to be in a good university and to never break down like wat i did during trials ('',)

10. When you met someone you like, will you confess or hide your feelings?
apparently, i like someone now.. so i would say, i'm hiding my feelings.. ('',)

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
phoneys (meaning pretentious ppl), ppl who take advantage of their family and frens, backstabbers..

12. Define Loneliness.
1. (quoted from angelin) Loneliness is when nobody understands you even when they are all around you.
2. Loneliness is when you have everything anyone would wish for, but u feel like u have nothing.
3. Loneliness is... when u feel lonely la..

13. Are you satisfied with your life now?
partially la.. satisfied bcuz i have ppl who rilli support me during these hard times.. not satisfied bcuz i screwed up my life so badly and i only have myself to blame for..

14. When is the most recent time you felt touched?
SPM trials.. hehe.. my dad's SO understanding.. when everyone around me was forcing me and adding pressure on me when i was already feeling so down, my dad was the only one who told me to stop forcing myself and to take time to reorganize myself (sort of la, haha)..

15. Where is the most beautiful place that you've visited?
not sure.. hehe...

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently?
nicole c. mullen - when i call on jesus

17. If you have a wish come true, what is it?
To be able to do well for SPM and make my parents proud!

18. Do you have anything to worried or scared recently?
yes.. S P M!!!

19. If the world is going to end, what will you do?
to spend my remaining time wif my loved ones ('',)

20. Who are you thinking of right now?
haiyo.. SPM coming dla!!! no time to think of anyone!!! hahaha..

and now i shall tag... Eleanor Cheng, Janice Leong, Justin, Jang Heng